My last blog post addressed the issue of sexual violence that had been done to me in the past. Long resolved, though not forgotten, it was important to bring my personal experience to the discussion of violence and misogyny in the popular culture.
There was a moment, though, a quick phrase that appeared in that blog that afterwards made me pause. It was a passing mention of “body image” issues and concerns about weight, something I felt in the moment would be familiar to most women, as well as to those men who are sufficiently aware of the concerns of the women in their lives. I caught myself up short, though, when I realized that those issues were an indication that the violence that had been done to my body wasn’t just coming from the outside. I had been doing it to myself for as long as I can remember.